He shakes his head, because with all her words, she's managed to describe exactly how he's feeling. He knows and wants there to be some justice for the twenty-five little angels he will never see again, but he's managed to find himself a life here that makes sense for him. And now, Jake wants to marry him, for real, and they could just be normal.

He bows his head down and kisses her shoulder. "Not bad," he promises, "but can't be real. Not after what he did."