How can this be a shock? Cougar is confused, because he'd thought that he'd been extremely clear in his letters and his actions that he values Jake above everyone else. Maybe he should have cross-stitched that into a pattern, because he's not sure how 'I want to take you home to my family' somehow translates to this.

He still thinks that it would be a mistake to do this, but he's shaking a little as he lets Jake wind closer, reaching out to stroke his thumb up and down Jake's cheek when he kneels in front of him. He leans back when Jake lunges up, tugging him with him onto the bed in one smooth little yank.

"Te amo, querido," he exhales against that little chaste kiss, turning to steal a little bit more of one.