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"I just want you," she says, struggling to keep her composure before she gives in and lets the tears slide down her temples. "Oh, god fucking dammit!" And then she's laughing and crying at the same time, wiping at her face and shaking her head and reaching for him. "Come here already, kiss me."

Cougar grins as he leans up on the bed, darting in to kiss her, but what starts slow turns into something prolonged and happy, a lazy and perfect thing as he thinks about how he'll be able to proudly introduce her as his wife, in coming conversations. "Stay," is what he says firmly. "I want to buy you a ring."

Her arms lift to twine around his neck, holding on to him as he leans over her to kiss her, slow and languid and loving. It's stupid to say that there's a difference between the way he's kissed her before and the way he's kissing her now, but she swears it's true, it's different. She can feel it. They're going to get for-real married.

"What, right now?" Alarmed, she tightens her arms around his neck so he can't escape. "No, Carlito, stay!"

Carlito. He grins, broad as anything, and hurries back into her arms with a daring, teasing grin. "I'm your Carlito now?" he teases in reply, thinking that it's the best name he's ever given her to use. He kisses her lips with a loud smack. "What if I need to prove you're my fiancee? I will need a ring," he points out.

"Yes, you're my Carlito," she huffs, trying not to grin at him but finding herself unable to refrain from smiling at the look on his face. He looks so much younger when he grins at her like that, so happy and unselfconscious about it, it just lifts years off his face. "My Carlito, so you should stay here with me and keep kissing me, and not go off looking for a ring. I'm already wearing a ring. It'll do for now."

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He makes a show like he's thinking about it, but then he nearly vaults onto the bed to sit across from her on his knees, leaning in to cup her cheeks and kiss her again, as hard as he can without putting his hands somewhere it'll hurt, even if the temptation is great. "Jake Alvarez-Jensen," he tries it out with a soft hum. "Not bad."

Her hands twist in his shirt to hold him close, and she lets out a little noise into the kiss, not quite a moan but more than a hum. "Just Alvarez," she decides quietly. She kind of hates her dad. Letting go of his name won't be a hardship. Not to mention it'll be funny for them both to answer when someone yells Alvarez! across the yard when they're back on base. If they ever get back on base.

Something washes over him that he hadn't expected to feel, a possessiveness that's finally quieted down. Between his fingerprints on her hips and his name attached to hers, she really isn't going to be anyone else's. Still, he gently holds onto her gives her a worried look. "You want this, yes? You're not just settling for me because I asked first?"

If he were anyone else, Jake would be really rather furious right now. As it is, she arches her eyebrow pointedly, giving him a very flat look that he should know spells trouble. "I'm going to pretend you didn't just ask me that," she deadpans, but relents enough to lean in and kiss him. "Idiot man. I love you. Just you, nobody else. I agreed to marry you because I want to marry you, because I like being married to you, and I want to make it for-real real. Not just pretend for a cover, not just pretend for a job, for real."

"I want to make sure," he protests, thinking that she had made it clear that before, when they were just a team, she hadn't wanted anyone's advances, even his. He cups her neck and eases her onto her side so he can bear down with her for a kiss. "I want to marry you too," he promises. "More than anything, I want us to be together, no matter what happens with Max."

She lets him roll them over, snuggling up close and slipping her leg between his so she can tangle them together so he can't leave. "Is it bad that I kind of don't want to find him?" she asks after the kiss breaks, her voice small and unsure. "Like, yeah, of course I want to clear our names, of course I want to make him pay for what he did, of course I want to stop whatever megalomaniac scheme he's brewing, but..." She sighs, twisting slightly so that she's half-rolled onto her back, staring up at the ceiling and the weird-shaped water stain that she's grown so used to.

"I like our life here. I like being your Jackie and running our tours. I like going down to the market with you and making you translate for me because everyone talks too fast. I like our apartment." She twists back, looking at him with wide blue eyes that seem all the bluer for the tan that's darkened her skin. "Is that bad?"

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He shakes his head, because with all her words, she's managed to describe exactly how he's feeling. He knows and wants there to be some justice for the twenty-five little angels he will never see again, but he's managed to find himself a life here that makes sense for him. And now, Jake wants to marry him, for real, and they could just be normal.

He bows his head down and kisses her shoulder. "Not bad," he promises, "but can't be real. Not after what he did."

It would be so easy to just quietly give up searching, to really let themselves live a life here. But that would mean nobody is looking for Max, nobody is trying to stop him, nobody is trying to avenge what he's done.

She sighs. "It's not fair."

Life isn't fair, she learned that very young. But that doesn't mean she can't be upset about it.

"We get our revenge," Cougar says evenly, his voice passionate despite the low volume, "and then we go home. I go meet your sister and niece properly, and we get married. Really married." There's more he wants to say about their home and their happiness, but he thinks this is the best start for now.

Talking about her sister and her niece cheers her up immensely. "Cougar, they already know you," she points out gently, reaching up to stroke his cheek with her fingertips. "And they love you." He's always been so courteous of her family, it's hardly a surprise they took a shine to him. "And I want to get married as soon as possible. Like, tomorrow-soon."

"Not as your husband," he says, because in his mind, that makes the world of difference. He's not just Cougar Alvarez, he'll be the man who's marrying the most important person in the world to them. When she makes her request though, Cougar lets out a wry laugh. "I need to buy you a ring to marry tomorrow. And you will not let me go."

Him being logical makes her whine and struggle impotently beneath him. "I don't want to let you go ring shopping, I want to make out with you!" She pouts, disliking having to choose, wanting the best of both worlds. "But I also want to marry you tomorrow morning, with the sunlight streaming through the windows of the church and flowers in my hair. Do you think we'll be able to find a priest to marry us on such short notice?"

Cougar can't help his grin when she can't seem to decide what she wants to do. He listens patiently, nodding the whole time as he tangles himself with her, careful to avoid the hips, and starts to kiss her in between words. "I have a priest," is what he says. "We can do evening wedding. Need witnesses," he points out.

"You do?" She shouldn't be surprised, Cougar goes to church relatively regularly, and sometimes she even accompanies him. Not often, she can't understand the service and she feels awkward staying in her pew when it comes time for Communion, but often enough that she thinks she's recognized by the congregation. It helps that she's so recognizable here in Bolivia, being nearly six feet tall with her brassy blonde hair. "We could call Pooch, I guess. Roque and Clay."

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He gives her a nod, because of course he has a priest. He doesn't think he could ever go to church and not have a relationship with a priest. His, here, is young and understands Cougar a little better than someone older would, which is nice, but at the same time, it's not like he can tell him everything.

"Or we could ask Father Pascal to pick someone from his congregation," Cougar offers, "if you want it to be a surprise to the team."

"It's not that I want it to be a surprise," she says, grateful that Cougar is able to read her half-formed reluctance without her saying much. "It's just...it's ours, y'know? Just you and me. Not Clay, not the team, just us."

"Ours," he agrees with a knowing nod of his head, because he knows what it's like to share in something special. He cups her cheek and gives her a soft, tender-hearted kiss as he thinks about their marriage. "I will ask Father to find someone to witness. He'll do the ceremony. And I need to get you a ring."

"I guess that means I have to let you go," she concedes with a sigh that's only half-played up for jokes. It helps that he kisses her like she's precious to him, that he seems reluctant to leave her even though she knows he's probably raring to go find something he deems acceptable. "Oh alright. Go on, then. I'll have dinner ready when you get home. And no," she adds, holding up her hand to forestall any smart comment he might try to make, "I won't be cooking. I'll probably just go visit the Ortizes down the block."

Cougar still sighs when he has to get up out of the bed, away from her. It's the last thing he wants to do, but if she really wants to be married tomorrow, he'll need to find the perfect ring sometime today. He leans in again and kisses her again, a little harder when she says she'll get dinner from the Ortizes.

"I love you," he says, seriously, and lifts himself up in order to start getting his things together to buy the ring. He hasn't got much money, though, so he hopes she won't mind him digging into the tour funds.

"I know," she replies, pushing up on her elbows to watch him, smiling, slightly overcome by the fact that this man was hers. "I love you too."

He can take whatever money he wants. It's just money, they can always make more. Watching him more around the room, collecting his things, her smile widens. "Go, get out of here. Before I change my mind and make you come here and fuck me already, tattoos be damned."